Pray...

I love how I make simple things soooo difficult. Like Jesus. My walk with Jesus specifically. I'm so wrapped up in the perfectness of Him that I forget that He never asked for perfection. Only willingness. But my willingness lately is about even with my perfectness. Nonexistent. I have no idea where to start on the path back to spiritualness. I've gotten so far away, it seems a bit daunting. But it's time to grow up. And get back to where I know I'm supposed to be. My current path is definitely not me. And yet...I keep heading thatta way. Gosh. Prayer needs to happen. 

I miss my betsie

Last April, I made my forever best friend.We're mind twins. Completely. Then she moved away. To stinking Utah. I miss her terribly.

Because she'll brave vicious sheep. 

 And take cheesy pictures in front of awesome bridges with me

Love you Sarah Beth. 

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Hmm.

I have these phases in my life where I get hung up on causes. Or just things even. I always forget what they are when I get several phases down the road. So I thought I'd blog about my current phases. Maybe this time I won't forget them.

1. Free-Range

This one I actually stick with. I don't eat chicken unless it's free-range. Because of this picture. It's heart breaking the lives these poor babies have. I know they're just chickens, but it's so sad. =(

2. Recycling

I've been doing this for awhile, but I slacked off. Until I realized just how much waste I produce. It's down right shameful.

3. Black Ops

I played everyday for 4 months straight. For hours at a time. Holy cow. It was an awful time. I loved it in the moment, but now that I've stopped..well I'm not so much of a fan anymore. 

4. Skype

My newest discovery. =) and my best. I love being able to see people who I otherwise wouldn't.

5. Thrift Stores

I don't think i will EVER lose this one. I buy books by the box full. The cheapness just brings joy to my heart =)

Ok. So maybe less of a phase blog. And more of a passion blog. Kind of shameful just a bit...

Who lives sees much. Who travels sees more.

I have a new obsessionnnnnnn.

I want one!! I want to get an old one and make it all hipster-y and cute and travel all over with it! 

Decisions Decisions

So...I'm visiting my betsie in Utah... This is the view on a bad day in the middle of town. This place is gorgeous! Now I have to deal with to move or not to move. Gosh. I hate decisions...

New Year Rambles

It snowed. Here. A lot. We never have snow. I love it. Not only is it beautiful, but class is canceled! It's wonderful. I've been spending lots of time with my mom, which never happens. We've been playing games like  Phase 10 and 

It has been sooooo much fun. It would be more fun with lots of people, but it's still fun though. 

My puppy HATES it. She doesn't like the cold. I've had to force her outside. She's also a diva. =)

I started reading The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes 

Sunday and I think my New Years resolution will be to read all the classics I was supposed to read before college started that I never did. It's a little late to get a resolution, but yano....better late than never. 

I'm going to Utah in March to visit my betsie!!!!! I am beyond excited about it. I miss her sooo much. And I'm pretty stoked about visiting Utah as well. I've never been there. And I LOVE visiting new places. Spring break come FAST!

These are my confessions..For now

Goodness gracious. My life is just one big mistake. I was so excited about Christmas and now that it's here, all I do is regret. My theme song for the week comes from gLee. "Merry Christmas Darling."

Favorite lines.

"Merry Christmas darling We're apart that's true But I can dream and in my dreams I'm Christmas-ing with you"

"I've just one wish On this Christmas Eve I wish I were with you"

I would give anything to go back in time. Which is crazy. I was insanely unhappy then. But I think I'm more unhappy now than then. I miss that guy. More now that it's almost Christmas than the past 8 months.

And I've realized I have a problem. The reason I pretty much have no friends is because I'm freaked out my commitment. Every time I start getting close to people I push them away. Anddd I'm queen of negative relationships. It seems the relationships that are gonna kick my butt are the ones I fight like hell to keep. Stop it Gert.

Anddd me and Jesus aren't very tight anymore. Which is very discouraging. I have all this passion pent up inside me and no idea how to get it out. I want to sing soooo badly, but it hurts. It hurts more than I can explain. Worship and mission work are my thing, I'm pretty sure, and I can't do either because I just want to break down and cry every time I try. I don't understand. No one else has issues like these. I tried praying about it and giving it to God, and when it didn't happen, I just gave up. I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to really. No one who really understands. Sigh. I don't know. I just don't know.

I think I just need out of this stinking town. Away from the same ol' people. I wish I was brave enough to leave....

PS. Loveeee this. And not just because Richard Gilmore was a Whiffenpoof, but because it's so weird and freaking awesome!! I love the "I can be urple, I can be purple, I can be anything you like" part. So fun. Too bad they got voted off.