You are good enough

I'm thankful for what was done on the cross for me that makes me good enough. 

Love people

Encourage people

People don't need the 22 systematic steps to theology. They need love. 

Your theology may be different but you sure know one thing. Jesus is real. 

Set a fire down in my soul 

That I can't contain that I can't control 

I want more of you god 

No place I'd rather be

Then here in your arms 

I get angry at religion. 

You need a revelation that God is great. 

The father of all lies. 

The devil is a lie. 

 

YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH

Places I Wanna Go

I Need to See These Before I Die

(in no paticular order)

1. Sedona, Arizona

2. Grand Canyon

3. Lake Superior

4. Hoboken, New Jersey

Specifically Carlo's Bakery

5. Flathead Lake, Montana

6. Coney Island

7. Ruby Falls, Tennessee

8. Devil's Tower, Wyoming

9. California Redwoods

10. Chicago Theater

Bucket List

There are so many things I want to do before I die. Here' s just a few.

1. Go to an NFL game

2. Go to an Alabama game

3. See Pentatonix live

4. See White Christmas Broadway

5. Go to Ruby Falls

6.Visit all 50 states

7. Watch the Perseids

8.Go camping

9. Go skiing

10. Go on a road trip

11. Go spelunking 

12. Ombre my hair

13. Visit the Gone with the Wind museum

14.Go paintballing

15. Set foot on all 7 continents 

16. Go ziplining

17. Donate blood

18. Swim with dolphins

19. Swim under a waterfall

20. Go on an African safari

21. Spend the night in a haunted mansion

22. Complete a Warrior Dash

23. Stay at a bed and breakfast

24. Go on a road trip to Canada

25. Shop in Paris

26. Visit a castle

27. Buy a to write love on her arms shirt

28. Go parasailing

29. Stay in a cabin in the mountains with just my love

30. Read all of my books

I don't get weekends anymore because of my job, but I got 2 days off this week and my love got Thursday off unexpectedly. So I had a weekend in my week. I got to spend 2 nights and a whole day with just him and my puppy. We went to a park and got to cook together. He tried my homemade Mac and cheese and we added tuna and made a casserole. It was amazing. I don't know what I did before him. He's my sunshine. I am one lucky girl.

I love you, but you're driving me crazy.

Happy?

It's November. The weather is amazing. The smell is amazing. Outside is beautiful. And yet I'm still melancholy. I need a reminder of what makes me happy this week.

Fall

Electric blankets

Books

happy starts with me

A happy life comes from a positive life and a positive life comes from focusing on the things that make you happy. How bout that? =) Soooo once a week. Find the happy in it. =)
1. My best friends-they get me and love me when no one else does.

2. Black Ops-it's just addicting and I love it. smh

3. Music-it makes EVERYTHING better.

4. Guitar-I'm so gonna learn to play it.

5. The Sing Off-epitome of musical-ness

6. Jesus-He just makes life better=)

Pray...

I love how I make simple things soooo difficult. Like Jesus. My walk with Jesus specifically. I'm so wrapped up in the perfectness of Him that I forget that He never asked for perfection. Only willingness. But my willingness lately is about even with my perfectness. Nonexistent. I have no idea where to start on the path back to spiritualness. I've gotten so far away, it seems a bit daunting. But it's time to grow up. And get back to where I know I'm supposed to be. My current path is definitely not me. And yet...I keep heading thatta way. Gosh. Prayer needs to happen. 

I miss my betsie

Last April, I made my forever best friend.We're mind twins. Completely. Then she moved away. To stinking Utah. I miss her terribly.

Because she'll brave vicious sheep. 

 And take cheesy pictures in front of awesome bridges with me

Love you Sarah Beth. 

http://mylifelivelaughnlove.blogspot.com/

Hmm.

I have these phases in my life where I get hung up on causes. Or just things even. I always forget what they are when I get several phases down the road. So I thought I'd blog about my current phases. Maybe this time I won't forget them.

1. Free-Range

This one I actually stick with. I don't eat chicken unless it's free-range. Because of this picture. It's heart breaking the lives these poor babies have. I know they're just chickens, but it's so sad. =(

2. Recycling

I've been doing this for awhile, but I slacked off. Until I realized just how much waste I produce. It's down right shameful.

3. Black Ops

I played everyday for 4 months straight. For hours at a time. Holy cow. It was an awful time. I loved it in the moment, but now that I've stopped..well I'm not so much of a fan anymore. 

4. Skype

My newest discovery. =) and my best. I love being able to see people who I otherwise wouldn't.

5. Thrift Stores

I don't think i will EVER lose this one. I buy books by the box full. The cheapness just brings joy to my heart =)

Ok. So maybe less of a phase blog. And more of a passion blog. Kind of shameful just a bit...

Who lives sees much. Who travels sees more.

I have a new obsessionnnnnnn.

I want one!! I want to get an old one and make it all hipster-y and cute and travel all over with it! 

Decisions Decisions

So...I'm visiting my betsie in Utah... This is the view on a bad day in the middle of town. This place is gorgeous! Now I have to deal with to move or not to move. Gosh. I hate decisions...

New Year Rambles

It snowed. Here. A lot. We never have snow. I love it. Not only is it beautiful, but class is canceled! It's wonderful. I've been spending lots of time with my mom, which never happens. We've been playing games like  Phase 10 and 

It has been sooooo much fun. It would be more fun with lots of people, but it's still fun though. 

My puppy HATES it. She doesn't like the cold. I've had to force her outside. She's also a diva. =)

I started reading The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes 

Sunday and I think my New Years resolution will be to read all the classics I was supposed to read before college started that I never did. It's a little late to get a resolution, but yano....better late than never. 

I'm going to Utah in March to visit my betsie!!!!! I am beyond excited about it. I miss her sooo much. And I'm pretty stoked about visiting Utah as well. I've never been there. And I LOVE visiting new places. Spring break come FAST!

These are my confessions..For now

Goodness gracious. My life is just one big mistake. I was so excited about Christmas and now that it's here, all I do is regret. My theme song for the week comes from gLee. "Merry Christmas Darling."

Favorite lines.

"Merry Christmas darling We're apart that's true But I can dream and in my dreams I'm Christmas-ing with you"

"I've just one wish On this Christmas Eve I wish I were with you"

I would give anything to go back in time. Which is crazy. I was insanely unhappy then. But I think I'm more unhappy now than then. I miss that guy. More now that it's almost Christmas than the past 8 months.

And I've realized I have a problem. The reason I pretty much have no friends is because I'm freaked out my commitment. Every time I start getting close to people I push them away. Anddd I'm queen of negative relationships. It seems the relationships that are gonna kick my butt are the ones I fight like hell to keep. Stop it Gert.

Anddd me and Jesus aren't very tight anymore. Which is very discouraging. I have all this passion pent up inside me and no idea how to get it out. I want to sing soooo badly, but it hurts. It hurts more than I can explain. Worship and mission work are my thing, I'm pretty sure, and I can't do either because I just want to break down and cry every time I try. I don't understand. No one else has issues like these. I tried praying about it and giving it to God, and when it didn't happen, I just gave up. I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to really. No one who really understands. Sigh. I don't know. I just don't know.

I think I just need out of this stinking town. Away from the same ol' people. I wish I was brave enough to leave....

PS. Loveeee this. And not just because Richard Gilmore was a Whiffenpoof, but because it's so weird and freaking awesome!! I love the "I can be urple, I can be purple, I can be anything you like" part. So fun. Too bad they got voted off.

1 Tree, 2 Tree, White Tree, Green Tree

The past couple of weeks have been...strange for me. Some days I've been ecstatically happy and then overwhelmingly depressed. Sometimes all in one day. Bi-polar rearing its head again. Haha

Last night I went on my pretty much my first real date since I've been single. I didn't even realize it was a date. And I felt...wrong the whole time. I kept comparing him to that guy in everything. Right down to the way he held my hand. That guy always knew I didn't like my hand being on top and suffered through the discomfort of his arm being longer than mine so that I'd be happy. Last night guy just gave up and put his hand on my leg. Very possessive and pushy btw so there won't be another date planned or otherwise. But the point of this disclosure is to question why I compare everything, especially things I complained about with that guy.

Ugh. Enough of that. I've gotten TONS of cute stuff!

This is my cute Christmas tree!

This is a fab Christmas tree I found at Big Lots for $10

This is another tree I found at Big Lots for $10. My favorite.

My mom found this underneath her cabinet. It was my grandmothers. Its superrrrrr cool. It's got one broken spot, but I'm in love with it!

Peace, Florence

Ma and I stopped at a gas station the other day and I saw these drinks with a peace sign on them. Of course I had to check it out. We bought two =) I'm in love. The best so far is Imported Ceylon Tea. They taste amazingggg, are all natural, and have the coolest designs on the front. I've had one every day since. And the best part? They're only 99cents!! for a HUGE can.

Also... Florence and the Machine. HATED her at the MTV Movie Awards. Heard Dog Days in a preview for next weeks gLee so I decided to give her another chance. She's so cool. She's beautiful and has an amazingggg voice!! She's quirky and hippie-ish. Different in a Lady Gaga way without being crazy. I want to be her.

In other news.... I have no idea what's going on in this head of mine. I've been visiting my brother in rehab(oh btw. My brother's in rehab) and I have to say it's stressing me out. I don't really know how to handle it. It's a nice reputable place and the guys in there are super nice(but obviously they need help or they wouldn't be there) Idk. Idk what I'm trying to say. It's just hard and I have no one to talk to about it. My family sucks at communication. The only one I really talk to is my nephew and he hates my brother for almost killing him and himself.(oh btw, my brother almost killed my nephew and himself) So he won't talk about him.

Sigh. At least I have Netflixs to distract me. =)

One for the Money

Just finished One For the Money by Janet Evanovich. LOVEDDDD it! It was funny and interesting. It was an action that was girly. I couldn't put it down once I got into it. AND When I was looking for a picture of the book for my blog I found this lovely piece of information -->

http://www.nydailynews.com/entertainment/movies/2010/02/09/2010-02-09_katherine_heigl_to_play_stephanie_plum_in_one_for_the_money_janet_evanovich_best.html

What a great choice! I LOVE Katherine Heigl. I'm so glad they're making this into a movie. It's gonna be GREAT.

Ahem. Betsie must wait to watch it until we can watch it together.

Current obsessions....

Currently I'm in love with a tonnnn of random stuff! Here's a few of them.

1. All I Do is Win by DJ Khaled

2. SJP NYC

3. Learning to cook

4. Andddd Classic 40's and 50's starlets. Specifically Vera-Ellen.